He that writes to himself writes to an eternal public. -Emerson

Friday, July 22, 2011

The rising waters

Living with the first baby in a small apartment was something like being in one of those movies where the protagonist (me) is trapped in a cube (the apartment) as the water (Felix) slowly rises. Living with the second baby in our current house is like being in the preview of that same movie: everything happens much more quickly, with the exciting moments highlighted. Except for one thing: the leap in water level that is heralded by a baby's first steps has been long delayed.

Give me a break, Gid. You were fully capable of walking--the strength, the coordination, the examples galore--from a year on if not earlier, yet it was only a few days ago that you decided to take some steps. Progress, if such it should be called, was rapid thereafter. A quick photo essay by way of explanation:

Monday: I catch Gideon playing baseball in the backyard. He immediately plants it and swears it was all a coincidence.
Tuesday: While out shopping I turn around and discover Gideon giving Tai Chi lessons in the Japantown food court. He sits down and mutters something in a language I do not understand.
Wednesday: Gideon, unaware that I am no longer holding him up by his overall straps, walks across the room. I film it. Faced with incontrovertible proof he admits he can walk, and asks if we are going to stop feeding him and changing him and all that. I assure him there is no connection between walking and his full ride. I am unable to explain exactly why he does get a full ride, but walking or the failure to do so has no bearing on the matter. Reassured, he strolls down the hall, climbs up on Felix's bed, stands, and starts ripping all the stickers off the bottom of the top bunk. He then eats the evidence.

Thursday: We go to the beach where Gideon emphasizes his new-found ability by walking in soft sand, which is really very difficult, you know.  I am so pleased with him, we have such a wonderful afternoon, and afterwards, washing the sunblock off in the shower, he stands up and yanks on my bellringer so hard I hit overtones.
Gimme a kiss you big lug, you, and enjoy your Friday.

Monday, July 11, 2011

I Salute You, Ernie Pyle

World War II is an utterly ridiculous subject for a blog post:  there simply isn't enough Internet to hold it all.  But I think about World War II a lot and I finally have a way in to a small but important piece of it, so here goes.

Choose a topic, any topic, and follow its path through the 20th century.  Five will get you ten that path breaks when it hits the war, and then, when it comes out the other side, it does so at a completely different spot from where it went in.  (Not the best imagery, I suppose, but it's better than the trite "the war changed everything.")  This disjuncture, this fault across the landscape of history, makes World War II, for me, endlessly fascinating, as does the sheer enormity, in every sense, of the war itself.

And so I read:  Studs Terkel's "The Good War," Morison's History of United States Navel Operations in World War II (15 volumes, don't miss even one), Overy's The Dictators, Das Boot, Churchill's own history of the war (a thousand pages in its condensed version; I'm starting the full six volumes next week, having found, yes, found, five of them on the street a few days ago).  I read and I read, but I do so haphazardly, and so it is that I have only now consumed what everyone over here read while the war was going on, namely the articles of Ernie Pyle, famously the greatest American war correspondent of that conflict.

Perhaps it's the day-by-day nature of his recounting, perhaps it's the man-on-the-ground perspective and his close focus on the grind as experienced by the average front-line soldier, but the net effect of reading these many articles is what feels like a realistic sense of the experience, a sense, almost, of having been there. For the first time I find myself uninterested in the big questions and wholly focused upon the quotidian, which, of course, is how most people took it most of the time. So thank you, Ernie Pyle, for allowing me some satisfaction after all this time of wondering.

And as if that's not enough I find I love the man. Pyle was a wanderer and a writer and a truly great journalist, and his life was the best story of all. I have read biographies for many years now (having been turned on to the genre not by my own historical studies but by my mother's suggestion of Sandburg's bio of Lincoln, about which another time) and what tends to happen if you read enough biographies is that you start thinking in those terms, that is to say in terms of an entire life, start to finish, a life as a whole, and not just about people as individuals, changing from day to day, sometimes this, sometimes that. You start thinking in those terms, and you start valuing people in those terms, too. Lincoln's life is a perfect example, and it's part of why I love the man so: much struggle, many years of wandering in the wilderness (literally and figuratively), the shaping of character by the hammer blows of experience, until finally he becomes the ideal tool for that one very particular job. But what makes Lincoln's life perfect--and apologies if this seems a bit morbid--is his death: the tool, having been used, having done its destined job, was then immediately cast aside.

And so it was for Pyle. He lived the war and he wrote about what he saw and felt, hundreds and hundreds of articles that communicated the battle itself to the (primarily American) millions who did not experience the fight directly. And then, as the war was drawing to its close, after years of marching with the infantry, sleeping on the ground, eating dirt, after living with the terror of air attack and shelling, after participating in the greatest amphibious actions, naval battles, and air bombings of this or any other war, after experiencing and relating all this and with the end clearly in sight, he, like Lincoln, was killed by a bullet to the head, fired by a Japanese soldier a third of a mile away. As Wikipedia notes, "He was buried with his helmet on, laid to rest in a long row of graves among other soldiers, with an infantry private on one side and a combat engineer on the other." Perfect.

I have no desire to go to war, and certainly no desire to die so. I would, though, love to live a life with a real shape, with a unique purpose, and would, I think, be willing to forgo some of its later years if in doing so the ones that I did have were thereby made into a narrative, burnished and perfect, like Ernie Pyle's.